Letters to...

My son Ducky,

I love every little thing about you! From the quirky little smile to the way you wiggle your toes, you have made my life incredible!
I love the way you care for your sister the way you do. She has learned tons from watching you. And yes some of the things you have taught her I don't like but you are still amazing with her!
I'm sorry I haven't spent as much time with you since Chicky was born. I'm trying to balance "you time" and "sister time", but Chicky is just learning how to do things on her own. But I do enjoy our downtime when Chicky takes a nap and we have reading time.
Don't hesitate to get me and play super heroes and hide and seek. Tell me that it's important! Those dishes can wait!

You are one amazing kid!

Mommy


Dear Precious Chicky,

You are getting so big! It's beyond me where the time went! I was holding your little body in my arms at the hospital and now you are running, hugging, asking questions and growing this beautiful personality!
I love the way you comfort your brother when he hurts himself and how you just run to me with open arms and give me one of those great big hugs that just melt every part of me.
I love when you love to dance and when the music starts you are ready to jump, skip and just have some good old fashion fun that your mom has forgotten to do for a very long time. You actually inspired me to take those dance classes. And as awkward as I feel, I just remind myself that you dance for the fun of it, so enjoy!
You remind me to be a kid when I can. And I need that.
You are going to be a very smart, beautiful, loving woman one day and I can't wait to walk with you in the journey. One favor though...
Can we skip the teenage rebellion phase?

Love Mommy


Dear Cpl. Mayhem,

I love you! And I'm sorry.
I'm sorry that I've been on your ass about Afghanistan. I'm just scared. I'm scared that after speeding half of the year preparing for this tour that you won't go. And in my selfish way, I'm OK with that, but I know that you want to put those months of hard work to use. I get that!
But I'm afraid.
I'm afraid that I'm going to lose you, the kids will lose you. What am I supposed to do without you? We've talked about it but it is still on my mind.
I'm so grateful that you are in my life. You have change the course of my life when I met you, and for the better. Hanging out with the wrong crowd, not caring for anything or anyone. You changed that. And you probably didn't even know that did you? You helped me re-focus my life and the things that were "of that moment" became less important because all I saw was my future.
Thank you for everything that you do and everything that you are. The fun moments, quiet moments, the moment where we argue and then you laugh at me because you are nervous but all you say to me is "You're so cute when you're pissed!" moments. All of the moments I cherish!
And I cherish you! Don't you ever forget that!
Keep smiling my love!

Your Little Brazilian Chicky



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