It's not a bad one, just one that has become something I do when I'm on the phone or in the kitchen.
I stare out my kitchen window. I can't help it!
It all started out when Cpl. Mayhem would got to work. I would look to see if he was in the driveway while I was cooking. Then it became a habit while he was overseas because I was a paranoid wreck. And it slowly became something I did while I was on the phone with someone.
Last Friday I was talking to my bestie Wanda, and we were getting really into the conversation when I did what I usually do and looked out the window. To my surprise there were a pair of eyes staring back at me! My heart stopped, my lungs ran up my throat, my skin went cold.
"What the hell Vanessa!!"
"Sorry Wanda, I have to go my parents are here".
Once my heart rate was back to normal, I finished yelling at my father for giving extra white hair on my head and making me lose about 5 years of my life, I realized how often I do go to that window.
Lesson learned I guess.